trapped in the cellar

        you know what i hate about when it's raining? the musty smell in my room. ugh. i hate it. makes my sinuses tingling. i always ended up with sneeze, sneeze and sneezing!  thank God the weather was 'okay' today. as i peered upon the window this morning, something nostalgic came across my mind.
         i missed my grandma so much. whenever i closed my eyes, i'll remember her smile very well. those face traced with tiny laugh lines at the corners of her eyes. i wonder if there's something behind those intriguing smile. someday she will die and leave us alone. and i'm afraid that i am not tough enough to encounter that situation. i've always got this sinister-feeling with me. without her my life might dangling and winced with no direction.
         people change like the seasons. yeah, maybe someday i have the gut to accept reality. je t'aime grandma!