The Joy Of Living

The woman that loves you wholeheartedly.

'You know you're in love when all those stupid love songs start making sense.'

A woman loves you.
The woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow every day.
She smiles but is actually crying.

How much longer do I just have to look at you, alone.
This love that came like wind,
This love that is like a beggar,
If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer
just a little bit.
Please don’t step back
I, the one who loves you,
is still next to you.
That woman is crying.

That woman is very shy
So she learnt how to smile
Her heart is so full of tear,
She can't even share her story with
her best friend

That's why, that woman
loved you
Cause you were so like her
another fool.
yet another fool
Please give me a hug before you leave me

I want to be loved, dear.
That's all I wanted
She shouts, just in her heart
just in her heart.
No one can hear her
but that woman is still next you

Do you know that
I am that woman?

You don't do you?

Because you are just a fool.

how much
how much longer
Do I have to love you like this

This love that is like a fool
This love that is like a beggar

would you love me?

That woman, who loves you
is still next you and she is still crying.

Queen Of Ambition

Hi people. i am currently enjoying my semester break. i am actually screwing myself during the holiday.ha ha ha. spending my time mostly on the internet, eating *nom nom nom*, sleep and and.. whatever. pretty much living like a pig huh? lol.

So i didn't plan anything during my holiday. plus, mom and dad are working. *sigh* nvm, i'll just sit in the house, waiting for our new semester to start. oh it's ok. i'm fine with that. i never get bored staying in the house. :p

Queen of ambition is actually a title to a korean drama. it is airing on astro, SBS now. i was watching the first episode on tv. and because of my eagerness to find out what happened next, i watched the rest episodes on the internet. hahahaha.

why i love the drama? why? wae yo? (oh somebody please slap me -.-) okay, back to reality. so as i was saying. the story is all about a betrayal, conspiracy, selfishness, and unconditional love. a man loves a girl nonetheless that he is willing to do anything for that girl. including selling his own body. which is so insane.ikr.. but due to the girl's greediness and thirst for power, she betrays the man that loves her the most and leave anything behind just to escape from poverty. And the excitement of the story begins when the man takes his revenge. and i can't wait to watch that girl rot in hell..twice. (okay that words are creepy... o_o)

[the gif below best describe me when watching the drama lol..source:tumblr]

okay thats it. bye for now. :)

epilogue

generally time is divided into three distinct regions. the past the present and the future. even now i'm living in the present, but my heart will always and forever living in the past. and i'm not looking forward or excited about the so-called future anymore. i've missed a lot of things. i want the time to pause and let me cherish every teeny bit of the hidden blessings in life. but still the time's cruel. it keeps ticking every second. never skipped a beat. okay the B-theories from McTaggart really blows my mind away. i just read about it and thinking about giving my thoughts on that theory here in my blog?

                         so, December's coming, indicating another year has come to its end. let us crossing our finger together so that the Mayan's prophecy will never happen. ha ha ha. okay scratch that. i'm just exaggerating. yeah who knows? :p

                         okaay let me bore you with some of my selca picts of the day. it's just a short update anyway. okay bye. Merry Christmas and stay blessed :)

thought-provoking

                                                                           1994 - 1995

      " All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time..." - The Five People You Meet In Heaven.

        CGPA for semester 1. Leaving house. Homesickness. New 'environment' for semester 2. Health problem._________ Rough patches in my life. Million things running through my mind. Lack of motivation. -.-" So, i found these pictures when looking up my folders. It feels so damn good to reminisce the past. Our childhood. That little girl. Smiled brightly to the camera. Joyous face. Life with no problems, worries. Mom's always on her side. But now she have to make decisions on her own. Life changes in the blink of an eye. Just move on. Because growing up is an obligation. Not an option. I promised myself that i will try harder for our semester 2. I'll try. Giving my very best. Stay focused Shera!

2012

perplexing climax

October 13, 2012.

I'd killed him. I once made a vow that i'll never do that again but the history repeats itself like a spinning wheel. Once again i was dictated by my own selfishness. Ended up hurting people. Mental breakdown.

Time

   12 a.m.____ the clock glares immensely right in front of me. my conscious eyes still blinking protesting that it won't sleep. hmm, i'll go back to my hostel tomorrow. so, today will be my last day. yah thats it. okay i won't post any crappy words to show u guys how sad i am at the moment. so dramatic right? lol. i know life will be harder after this. with all the assignment, test, tutorials, lectures, and the mighty one, final test. -.-

   hmm, so i posted the title above as 'Time' because my post today will be closely related with time. duh *facepalm* i never got the chance to meet my high school friend during the holiday. sux right? and i am pretty sad about it. i miss them all so badly. i wan't to know their stories and updates. sob3. and now, they're all leaving. going back to their college/campus. :'(

   okay so i'll post some of my pictures from last year to the latest one.

December 2011

March 2012

May 2012

July 2012

okay i'll make an update again next time. maybe on my semester break? well, bye for now readers. and thnks for reading :p

here comes august

   the month of august has already started. jeez still can't believe it. time flies so fast. in just a blink of an eye. well, what can i say? so, i've been away from home for almost 2 months? *walaupun slalu juga balik hujung minggu. lol.* and i can feel that i am no longer the same person i used to be back then. something has changed within me, and i dunno why.

   i miss everything. mom, dad, sisters, families, home, friend, mojo ohh stop it self. this temporary separation taught me a lot. i have to teach myself to be tough, making a realistic decision and of course dealing with society. while reminiscing the old memories, i also learn to open my heart in making friends with people. let me tell ya, it's not that easy. but as the time goes by, i finally can accept others to be my friend. i love my friends in here. as much as i love my high school friends. terutamanya c ASSIE ZAEE PETRUS. (dia suru sy mention nama dia d blog sy. so... hahahahah sorry ass) ya, let me introduce u to my new mates. stella jane, stella lim, lily ann, hafiz, assie, sel *inactive member* and wenda & eron. we always spend time together. brunch, balik hostel, jalan2 n during lecture.

                                                                   my roommates :)